The Flipside of Things

Hello? Sorry for not updating my blog. It is not that I am lazay but emm, just a lot of things coming to my mind which is a bit frustrating but emm, on the flipside it may not be that bad either.

For a start, call Zhu last nite and have quite a good chat with her until I told her that I planned to visit her in January. She strongly objected against it stating she is busy and also there is no need for me to come down to visit her. Anyway, to keep thing short, I think our relationship is getting nowhere. Emm, I am in 2 minds now, on the contrary, I have to fight for what I think is right, that is to go after the girl I like regardless of the outcome. But then, if she really started to avoid me and not even chat with me then it may feel even bad to me. This reminds me a lot about some events that took place some 1o years ago, when some ger I know and was quite close to, start to avoid me when I tried to advance further. No more phonecalls after that. Is that really what I want or if you really like someone you should learn to let go and be happy as long as they are happy also? On the flipside, I am not financially prepared to settle down, less say having a foreign wife who can work for the first few years.. it may not be so bad after all..

Since I started doing volunteer work, I think my mind is much at ease or relax if that is the word to use. Although I still have occassionally fits of anger and burst of temper at work, I think overall it is much under control. I think interacting with other people other than those from my workplace have definately helped. The kidsread session had ended and I have been helping with some activities for the last few weekends, more events to come in December but emm, am planning to go for a trip or trips but emm.. maybe should just stay in singapore and help out at least I feel I am contributing instead of spending..

For work wise, I am definately running a very tight schedule, so many loopholes to cover but no idea how to start and end them and emm, the year is ending and the holiday season is coming so emm, if dun finish soon I gonna get ready a very good explanation. Again, I am in 2 minds, if I just make it simple and just meet the requirements and forget it, there may be some repercussion later on, but then if I make it too complicated, these people will complained they had no time. Like my boss say, dun project yourself as public enemy No.1.. but come on, I am also just trying to do my job..

On financial wise, I am managing quite alright, expecting to get a good bonus in a couple of weeks' time and then in Jan and Feb also. Have to spend wisely so emm, still not sure if I should go for my trips.. Also have 2 things to share.. first.. never borrow money to anyone when you yourself is in need of money, help within your means cos you help people and people dun pay you then who will help you?.. second thing.. money is always a sensitive issues, money can destroy longtime relationship.. so when you want to borrow money or when coming to money issues be very very careful.. and always tell the truth or talk to the person directly when you have problem paying back... dun tell father/mother stories.. it will get you nowhere.

Not sure what to expect for the next week, time passes too fast for me.. still got tonnes of stuff to do before I can enjoy the holiday season.. I just hope that all goes well for the last month of the year and the coming new year... Take care, whoever is reading this..

Me and My Kids 我和我的孩子们

50 more days to end of the year!

I am getting lazy with updating my blog.. maybe got influence by the Divine one. For a start, I am not really busy lah, just plain laziness... sometime got inspirations to write something but then the tomorrow then do it mentality kicked in.

I think I am getting back into my workaholic mode, for a start I had been doing quite a fair bit of OT which means I got more money lor. But for me, more money equals to more senseless spending.. emm, planning for my holidays emm, but spend more money when I should be using the money to pay my debts... emm, have to think twice. Maybe should just stay home and clean up my room instead of going somewhere..

Love life is not getting anywhere.. but not too bad also. Zhu is real busy so have not managed to talk to her for the past week or so.. drop her an sms and got a reply the next day, told me she is running a very tight schedule.. so drop her a message telling her I will stop calling her during this period and asked her to drop me an SMS when she is free to chat.. maybe it is time to move on? but emm, actually I am quite happy with singlehood, no commitments, no need to worry about how you spend your money... not too bad also... we shall see how lor..

Been getting reflections on how life had treated me well and learn to appreciate the good things around me. I was onboard the MRT from City Hall back home when it dwells on me that I had come a very very long way since my secondary school days where I had to work after school to earn my own pocket money.. a time when I asked myself when will I earned a $2000 salary.. and now I am way above that but emm, one thing I never learnt is to spend my money wisely.. I am blessed with a good paying job but emm, I am broke most of the time... it have to change somehow.. I have to grow up.. even when I am 31 yr old already..

Children really grow fast, was playing with nephews today and realise how big they are now, it seems just yesterday when they were just babies learning to sit and crawl and now they are running around and asking you lots of questions.. emm, time reallt flies lor..

What do I intend to do in the last 50 days of the year? For a start, I had to finish the outstanding stuff at work and time is running out, given all the disturbance I have.. emm, hope I pull through lor.. next is to cut my debts down as much as possible before Bonus day, so that I dun have to spend the chunk of my bonus paying of my debts. Will try to clear 2 accounts but it looks unlikely, especially after paying my mom the money I owe her... emm, see how it goes lor..

I shall end here, dunno when will I do a post again but just wish everyone reading this to spent their day fruitfully and their money wisely..

Week 45

Yes, it is week 45... thinking of writing a blog on this lazy and boring sunday.. seems like everyone is busy... sian ah.. have to force myself out today rather than rot at home.. ZHU is busy also.. called but spoke for barely 5 mins, asked her when can call her, she say dunno.. sian ah... will do an update when I get back.. anyway, life is still great...