Brain Freeze

I am considering getting my brain freeze up if that is possible. So that I can stop worrying and frustrating myself over almost everything. I feel that I had to make this post to list down what I had in my mind now so that I can recap the moment in the future or just laugh it away.

For a start, I had a cursh on a colleague at my workplace but emm, today find out that she just got attached to a Malay guy working together with her at the same department. Do I feel sad? Ya, I think so, my heart is aching now. Maybe if I approach earlier I may have a chance but emm, what is new? Good things dun wait for you. No guts no glory. I guess life have to go on.

Remedial training had been great so far. I realised that I like been surrounded by people doing the same activites as me, less say for work lah. I remember the time when I was doing my degrees or during my advanced dip class. It as so much fun and such a stress reliever to have people around to talk cock and chat about daily things. emm, I am contemplating to go back to study again.

I had not called my CHING for more than a week now. It seems that we have less and less things to talk. Everytime when I called her, she would always be busy be something. Maybe I am just been sceptical. Have fate and thing may work out. And yes, I will be going to China at end august to visit her, she forgo the opportunity to go to Guangzhou as she will no have much free time after August. Maybe she does that so that we can thrash thing out once and for all. Keeping my finger cross.

It is 10:08 pm now, in less than 2 hrs it will be august. So how was the first month of the second half of the year, I would say so-so. Work wise I am coping well, but financially and emotional I am almost getting into a mess. As mentioned earlier, I gonna have to get some money from somewhere to settle all the upcoming events. Keeping my fingers crossed on this also.

Well. I guess this is it. Kudos and thanks to all the good folks who still cares about me. Thank you and bless you people.

16th July 2007

Today is a rather busy day. For a start went to Bedok to attend the audit opening, then have to rush back to Changi to clear some issues. On the bright side, I am starting to like the place, today 2 managers who will be audited called me to ask on some issues, apparently they are quite nice people, can joke while we discussed on how to "settle" the auditor. I was glad when both came back and told me they managed to get through using the information I have given to them. Today we had durian feast again, there was one on friday, this was suppose to be for those who were on night shift last week but who cares, we had 250 kgs of durians plus a simple buffet. That is the great part for normal shift staff like me, we got twice of almost every buffet or any other food event.. I am seriously tired now... glad that auction is doing o.k but hope it meets my reserve... yawn, yawn.. have a great week folks!

Long Distance Relationship

I called my CHING today after my RT, apparently she is going away to another province for training next month so will not be free. She asked me to get a refund but I told her maybe I pushed back the date but she was not able to confirm her schedule. I even tried to tell her if she is not free then no need to accompany me, just wanna meet up and have a chat. Anyway, tried to cancel ticket but it was non-refundable. Only thing I can do now is to go somewhere else or pushed back the date.. I am beginning to think that long distance relationship does not work at all, at times when I need someone to talk to, emm, she isn't actually there.. maybe I should consider going after a local..

Keep It Simple!

Now it is almost 1 am on 15th July 2007, can't sleep as had just woke up from a catnap at 11 pm. I had been lazy to update my blog since the last post although I have a lot of interesting things to share.

I just receive a sms from my CHING at 1215 am, seems that the sms was delayed as she asked me if I had dinner and asked me to call her as she had something to tell me.. Dunno but somehow I had a very bad feeling about this.. I had been trying to call her for the past week but either she dun picked up the phone or it was off... anyway, let's see how it goes.

I received a job offer from a big public listed construction firm on monday. I had never had any interest in working in construction industry as a safety personnel. It is just that this recruitment agency called me while I am busy and I just agreed to go for the interview without asking much questions. Anyway, I had a good interview which was maybe why they wanted to engage me or maybe it is becos they need someone urgently. Anyway, I rejected the offer as firstly like my title stated " Keep it Simple", yes, I am happy with where I am working now. Decent salary, tolerable work environment... perks... so why complain. You may asked why I go for interview in the first place.. I also dunno but emm somehow I was sort of influence by my predecessor that my current company is not so good.. yes maybe.. but I think it is fine for now. This is the second job offer I rejected for the past month, first was for a food company which offer me a 10% increase on my present salary while the latest one was a 30% rise. Madness to reject? I bet to defer..

Hamilton Sundstrand is a good if not great company to work in so far, the people are more open in their speech, maybe due to the US culture. I am still trying to adapt but so far I think I am doing well. There are still many unanswered questions on how the EHS system works and mostly are unanswered. I was told to follow and dun asked too much questions. Anyway, I do hope to bring in some new ideas as it seems like my dept is just following closely rather than adding value. The past 2 weeks had been doing a far bit of fire-fighting for the coming corporate audit, emm, but well, just do what I can finished since my boss is always springing up surprises almost everyday.. I wonder is that why my predecessor left in the first place. I am also glad that the temp boy that send to help me is really good, although it is only a short 2 weeks but I really had to thank him for the help. Benn hanging out with the maintenance guy for a while, had ice cream prata with them on tuesday, chatted and shared on some gossip in changi and bedok. Emm, was surprised that someone told me that someone had been gossiping that I am stressed up at changi.. emm, maybe, cos I just had a weird dream on machine profiling, something I had been doing for the past 2 weeks.

I had started doing some exercise this week. Decided to go for a run round the company compound at 4:30 pm since we had to wait for the bus till about 5:20 pm. I had this intern from Cornell who wanted to do some exercise, so what the heck, let's run. I am waiting to see if anyone starts complaining that I used company time to do my own time. But earlier this week, a guy from the US was commenting that we had nice gym here and no one used it. I think Singapore work culture is seriously boring, all work and no play... Also starting my RT today, will be a long 8 weeks, emm, I must remember to book for IPT after that. Although I dun get an allowance for that but it beats going for RT for 8 weeks.

My predecessor who mingled with chinese horoscope and fortune telling did a predication for me before he left. A couple of things which I keep in mind, firstly he told me that I would be best working in a place with lots of metal (sound like Hamilton, since it manufacture metal parts) and also I will most probably will find my partner at work. On fortune wise, he said that I will be better off after I turned 35 yr old which I strongly believe so since I am currently still in debts. On the love side, I had been asking a few questions, although my CHING and I are still not official but I am comfortable with her but emm, but someone in my workplace recently comes up and I just cannot resist not stealing looks at her. She may not be that attractive but her funny expression and character seems to attract me quite a bit.. Is it alright to just mixed around first before deciding on the right one? I dunno cos I am kinda of a firm person like when I was with my ex but then now the fact is I am not actually attached.. emm..

Just brought a big lot of cards from Mike, some from Jeff and some from Taokun, nothing interesting but still paid USD$200 and USD$250 respectively. Already sold some from Taokun lot, now I am thinking maybe I sold the sp rcs too cheaply but well... at least I sold some. Financially I know I am going to need a lot of money next month, firstly have to pay for my root canal treatment about $700 or more, then the 7th month coming, had to pay for the offering and also donate some lucky thing for auction as I am the Urn Owner this year, this will set me back at least $400++, I was supposed to be lucky as a Urn Owner but so far this year not much luck on 4D, but not demanding too much as life had so far been good this year. I also had to pay back my best friend, Jevin, his $1000 that I loaned from him before he start complaining. We had a bad quarrel last month over booking for a trip and as they said money is the root of all evil, I better settle this soon before it adds further strained on our friendship. Although we had not called each other for more than 7 weeks now but I know thing will be back to normal soon. Bless the old boy! And ya, going to China to visit my Ching at the end of august so will also need some money, figure that I need to bring about $500.. all the financial commitments coming up and dunno where to find the money... oh well, we see how it goes..

There are so many things I still had in mind to share but emm, dun wanna make it too long... anyone interested to have a chat can drop me a sms or give me a call... Thanks and bless all!