Most people would only heard of such a thing called "Monday Blues" but emm, I am suffering from what I called a sunday blues. Basically it is just that I am real bored and simply dunno what to do. I spent the whole of saturday sleeping, eating and watching TV, a bit wasteful since my time could be spent on more production things like emm, maybe taking up a second job, doing volunteer work etc. Ya, I am supposed to do volunteer work today at Woodlands CDC but phobia got the better of me and I decided to head home after settling some personal matters at Tanjong Pagar. Why? To keep it short, I am supposed to teach tuition (one to one basis) for kids that are in the EM2, EM3 stream (wonder what is that...). But the kids are so unfocused that they would shout abuse at you or scrutinise you as if you are some kind of low life. I am still featuring out what is their purpose of going for the tuition since it is not a compulsory thing. Even when you are "kind" enough to buy them sweets (M & M by the way), they demand that you have to buy them more... as if I owe them. For the last tuition, I was sort of chased out by the kids so I went to help out in the pre-school and lower primary reading and activities class. Wow, I feel much better, those cute little boys and girls. Anyway, after that session, I feel that I can manage this level better.. Reading story book to them and acting cute isn't that hard.. YES, reading to kids.... hard to imagine but I think it is a good stress relieve. Hope all goes well!
On workwise, I had nothing much to complain, first I surprised myself by been able to wait up at 5:20 am everyday and go to work on time. Kudos to me for doing that... anyway, I am known for my adaptability... but emm, still trying to get use to the work environment, basically it is very simple as the advise given by my predecessor, do your work and stay out of people's business. Sounds easy but been a hyper dynamic and outspoken person, I wonder how long I can last before I burst out.. Actually maybe I had already did, there was this meeting on tuesday which involves a lot of people. The meeting was on some safety issues brought up by the corporate rep during his visit to the plant. Oh mine, was the American reps in the plant serious about this issue when they discussed it. But as usual, the local or loco (as the american called it) that remains quiet and just listen, adopting the famous quote " You talk, You do!". Since my boss was around, I figure that I just take down some notes (or at least I seems to be doing so) and mind my own business. But out of the blue, one of the american rep asked me for my opinion, emm, I had to go from XT mode to Pentium 4 3.2 Ghz in seconds to answer his questions. As usual, I managed to get out of the situation by giving some very politically correct and constructive (meaning trying to pull more people in so that I can get away) suggestions and comments. Apparently, after much discussion, they decided to try out my suggestion.. but emm, american culture is sometime great cos I talk does not mean I do.. anyway, another american rep was arrowed to do the job.
Traps. There are a lot of traps around the company especially when you are new. Many people will try to test your knowledge and ability to handle situations by sending your e-mails or asking for your advise directly (sometimes in front of management staff). Nothing new to me but as experience told me, dun commit too much. Just answer in a political and constructive (here we go again) manner. Anyway, I am expecting more of such traps to come along the way...
Financial. I just find out that I cannot manage my finances anymore, not that I cannot control my spending, which I am doing now superbly but that I can so much bills and debts to pay that it exceeds my current financial means. Drastic situations calls for drastic measures, for a start, I am trying to liquidate whatever I can on Ebay and also maybe start doing some OT to subsidize my income. Anyway, hope all works in a couple of months time.
Frustrations. I am feeling a bit frustrated probably due to my financial situation now.. called my ching last nite, she was out shopping it was rather noisy but she took her time to talk to me and asked me not to think too much.. feels much better, I am starting to like her more and more..
Best Friends. Life had come to such a stage where you close friends no longer called you up to check on you or asked you out for a cup of coffee. Basically I am doing thing much on my own now, going for movies, having lunch at mac, shopping, go orchard jalan jalan... Maybe this is what we called coming of age, all of them are either married, or busy with their careers. For those few that are still in contact, thank you for spending your time with me. Ya, one more thing, I had to keep in record. Mr J, if you are reading this, pls dun be a pain in the ass and keep on thinking that you cared for us when your actions are actually showing that you are trying to show off... we know you well and your words hurt us although it may not mean much to you.
Career. What constitute to a successful career, lots of money? lot of power? I dun think any of this matter if I am given a choice. The most important thing is happiness. Yes, you must be happy with what you are doing. Sad to say that but I think that given a choice, I think my happiest job so far is been a financial adviser.. never had I mixed with such nice colleagues and superior that had given me so much support and show me such genuine concerns. But emm, for me reality kicks in, I have to settle my priorities first which is my bills and debts, so emm, I had to leave this wonderful job. Just a word of advise for those who consider leaving this career without the kind of problems I am facing, you will live to regret it.
Anyway, I will end with this stupid quotes that just comes out of me.
"Fruits don't grow on trees if you dun nurture them"
"Been financially independent or broke doesn't make any different, it is the quality of life that matters"
"Time does flies, especially after you turn 21"
